Kicking Mediocrity In The Face

Chasing “enough” in a world of “more.

Photo by Armand Khoury on Unsplash

Here I am, caught in the throes of a peculiar unrest.

It’s not unhappiness, per se, but a nagging sense of discontent. A feeling that despite the challenges faced at work and in hobbies, I’m not truly pushing the envelope. My physique, my bank account, my freedom to indulge without a second thought – all fall short of my aspirations.

It’s a paradox, really: surrounded by opportunity, yet stationary in my pursuit of more.

Why this stagnation? Why the disconnect between boundless desire and actual attainment? I’ve preached the gospel of self-reliance, of making every issue mine to solve, of shaping my surroundings rather than being shaped by them. I refuse to play the victim, believing in my strength, determination, and discipline to carve out the life I yearn for.

Yet, here I stand, introspecting on my inertia.

I don’t point fingers at the economy, my upbringing, or any external factors. These, I realize, are just narratives I’ve clung to, excuses that shield me from acknowledging a simple truth: I’ve allowed mediocrity to become a comfortable bedfellow. But no more. It’s time to redefine my relationship with myself – to stop being content with ‘almost enough’ and start living with a voracious appetite…