Daily Diary

16th September, 2024

Photo by Road Trip with Raj on Unsplash

Is it officially autumn? Usually we get one last blast of an Indian September before going full Baltic. Coming soon.

I know it’s been a while. My discipline has been woeful, lack of self-love pro max. It’s amazing how addictive maintaining a lack of discipline is. I guess because it’s the easiest thing to do. But I feel my will and purpose wilting away everyday I don’t exert discipline; and it growing exponentially whenever I did have a streak for a couple of days. I can feel it happening instantly. And this constant, white-noise of dread, fear, anxiety…all of that cause I’ve strayed from my path for too long. I’ve done less everyday than what I am truly capable of. And that’s when the brain rot immediately starts.

So am I going to get over myself and get going? That’s the plan. Again. Let’s see if I’ll actually do it.

Cuppa tea first though.